Scary Greetings!

Boo!!

Hey!
This is one of the cards I sent 2 weeks ago to a friend :)








"Pixie, Kobold, elf, and sprite,
All are on their rounds tonight;
In the wan moon's silver ray,
Thrives their helter-skelter play.
~Joel Benton"

Prrrr

and here is another one .... 









"Witch and ghost make merry on this last of dear October’s days."



I just love this holiday!!! 
One last card for you! 

Life's not fun without a good scare!

"Nothing on Earth so beautiful as the final haul on Halloween night.  

~Steve Almond"

PS: One of the 5 cards is on my DeviantArt profile ;) 

Enjoy!

All Hallow's Eve

Tomorrow at sundown we will celebrate ....Halloween!
When I think what it has been reduced to these day..........drinking and partying...not caring at all what it used to stand for. Actually this happened to all old Holidays :( But I don't care really, for there are still people out there who respect the old ways (and I'm one of them) That way, they will never be lost. The Magic will never fade into the unknown...

Since I love this Holidays like crazy, I already decorated part of my home with leaves I went searching for this afternoon. Later on, I will have some friends over, with whom I will share a coup of tea and pumpkin pie and baked apples :D and of course...the spirit of All Hallow's Eve!

an old drawing of mine!

I wish you all a Happy Halloween!!



Ps: My Pumpkin is already in the window, waiting to be lit! Hehehe :D

Angels walk . . .

. . . among us!
But can we see them? They can have many forms shapes and colors....we only have to see them. By angels I don't mean the mythical creatures who are told to live on the right Side of God, but people who come into our lives and give it meaning, who give us hope, strength, the will to fight through it all!
It's just amazing how in only two days I stepped into two of them!
The first one I initially thought of being a horrible person, who's only goal was to break us down! How blind can we be when we pay attention to all the bad mouths around us. Believing what they say about other without even knowing them.
Now I saw that I was wrong! There is a human part in everyone of us. No matter how damaged we may seam. We all make mistakes. That's just the way it is. I am so grateful. That very person I once thought of being cold and "evil" opened my eyes...my soul..opened doors between me and others..between me and her! I will always be grateful for that! Now I have so much more information I can use in my auto analysis :) Thank you!
The second one...are actually more than one :) It's a whole legion of angels! And after last day/evening...I was turned into one myself! For 3 years now I have been singing with a coir. Not a usual coir! We are like a flower...we come alive at the end of spring...then we live for a week or two and highlight the lives of everyone around us...and then we die just to be awaken again next springs end! The history of this flower goes way back. It was born 7 years ago. Born out of passion and love of music. This baby flower came to life by the hands ( actually voice) of Dominic and a small group of people who shared one dream! Every year it grew stronger and bigger! Now it has the strength to come alive even twice in a year! Last evening was the first time the Flower of Music came alive in the cold Fall ( when everything else falls to earth and dies). It was amazing! And I am honored to be part of it, of this flower..family! No matter where I will be from now on, I will always come back to it!

The painting you see here, was the birthday present for a dear friend of mine :) I think it fits perfectly :)

"and I don't have to fight it anymore
for all those years I was dreaming
and I don't have to worry anymore
cos I found my belief in..."

 (Anathema - Angels walk among us)

Have a magical Day!
Ani!


PS: I'm closer to find my way out of my shadows...for now I carry light with me...I have found it in me! I am part of it!

Light me up!

 I was looking at this picture which I initially named The Kraken because of the weird way my hair was resting on my bed :)
I didn't knew what I should name this post....until I heard these words:

"I've got it on my mind to change my ways
But I don't think I can be anything other than me
No, I don't think I can be anything other than me"

 I was listening to Light me up by The Pretty Reckless and it made klick in my head! It fist perfectly! Me struggling now with the shadows of myself, finding my way through it with the help of some light  ....
I see now...I  don't have to become something else... a replica of what I once was after this war has ended! no! Through this fight I will better understand myself and accept it the way it is! I will not turn into something that I'm not, denying my shadows means denying my very own me! We are all light and darkness in one form!
My goal in life is to find the perfect equilibrium between these two parts :)

Wishing you all the same!
Ani

Open doors yourself!

Don't wait for them to open by themselves or by some mysterious divine force. Even if there is someone in front of that door and they open it...they don't do it for you, they do it for themselves. And if they are behind that door...it's still the same! They will never open it just so you can go inside.... Again it's just so that they walk out of that room/space they have been in.
We have to do it ourselves if We want it to be our doing!
That's what Itsy is doing in this picture. Ignored by us, she no longer depends on us when she wants' to go outside. She found a way to solve her problem and now she can open doors herself!

All this reflects all most everything I have been going through these past days. October may has started in a very beautiful way...but since it is the shadow month ....it all changed!

The shadows started rising around me blocking my way out of this gray world. I had moments when I thought I will collapse under all the weight, when everything seemed lost and not forth fighting for. But till now I managed to find a way out of most of the Shadows grabbing me by the throat. Even if I have to throw them off kicking and screaming, I turned some of those bastards into little sparks of light.
One has to put his own weight against a problem in order to have it solved properly!

...and that's how it has been since my last post....and I'm still fighting shadows turning them into light...finding my way out :)
just like Itsy did in the end :)

Have a nice day!
Ani

First Lesson: Magic is all around!

This morning, at 8 am, while I was walking to work I had am interesting encounter.
It was a bright morning for this time of year and yet I didn't mind the sun (as I normally do) After I crossed the street while listening to a song from Fairy Tail I saw that I was being followed...
At my left, there was a dog walking besides me, changing sides...left right, right left and so on. I smiled at him telling him good morning and went on...he was still near me...sometimes he was walking in front of me and sometimes he was way behind, stopping from time to time.
I had to turn right in order to continue my way to work and I was wondering if he would follow.
He did. Now, because of the tight road he was walking very close to me and then he went in front keeping to go his way...I knew my next turn would be to the left...now wondering again if he would turn left before I had the chance to, since he was ahead of me.
He did! Amazed we walked side by side till I reached the open door from my working place. He just stood there...looking at me going through it, waving him goodbye and thanking him with an wink of an eye for keeping me company ;)

Work went extremely well today! Everyone had a great time and at the end of it we all went home, our face covered in a big smile :)

And so I went back home...
While I was walking and listening to an favorite song of mine from HIM, I saw something flying through the air. It was a Dragonfly
I don't know why...but every time I see on I get so exited! They remind of dragons...and it's not just because of their names...I love their different colors and the way they fly and look and and...
That moment I realized that everything around me looked so magical....I was spellbound! I even stopped for a moment, then went on ....

at home, while I was eating with my mother....and listening to the radio...they played a song I haven't heard for a long long time....It was Rock my life by Jeanette Biedermann. When I was little I was crazy about this song :)) And then I remembered what a colorful life I had back then and how strongly I believed in magic and music and...in myself! When we are kids...everything is beautiful!

This world is how we see it...if we choose to look at it from a bitter point of view ...than bitter it is! If we choose to paint it with all the colors we can come up with...then it is colorful! (or not...depending on how many colors we choose)

I choose magic! I choose Music!! I choose what I want to have in my world...no one else but me :)

Have a beautiful day!
Paint your own world, put life into it...MAKE IT REAL and it will be!
Ani ;)

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In the Shadows

Hello and  a beautiful first October to everyone!!
This picture was taken last summer. It features my dog Roco. He was running as fast as he could to get where I was standing. I choose this picture because it's exactly what I am doing and going to do this month. This month song is In the Shadows by The Rasmus. 

"No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer"

 Finally I know where I am...where I was for 5 years! In the shadows..the deep shadows of my very soul. Now I am going to search every inch of them...for information...for answers to my questions...finding out who I am...what my purpose is in life...

I have to see and understand my dark side...in order to be able to see the light...once I fully understand this dark area of me...I will know how to find the bright way out of it..and with it...out of the Shadows!

...and whenever I might need to..I will be able to back...now knowing the way in and out! 

October is the month of.....Shadows!