Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Thank you!!!!!!!!!

Thank You!
Today is my birthday!
It's been 21 years since my mother gave birth to me. She was 21 herself (She turned 21 only 2 months before I was born)
It was a very special day for me! It was warm and sunny....at this time of November...a rare thing. I even saw a tree with fruits...I was shocked...it felt like summer....
Thank you all for your kind words and wishes, thank you for everything you gave me! I am thankful for you being part of this beautiful day!
You are part of my world, weather you know it or not...it's better if you guys know it, since it's a magical place this world of mine...and you...the ones true of heart...will be always welcomed in ti!!!!



I send you All....all my love and hope!

Be brave my friends!

Yours,
Ani
Secret...Place
Greetings from my sacred place...my sacred secret..garden!
I wish you all a beautiful autumn day!...Even though it's one of the last days of fall.....I will enjoy it! Hope you will too...




Yours,
Ani :*

The Wind under our...ahm Feet?

Le Wind
Last summer/fall ....I went with a friend to unwind a little...
we went to a place outside of Timisoara.... and just sat there and relaxed....
It was a beautiful day! The wind was playing with our hair like crazy :))
We discovered the old way of reading time...and more....
Le Cristina
Le me










Le Us!

Hermann

Hermannstadt
This summer I was in Sibiu...or Hermannstadt! I love this city...I fell in love with it since the first time I saw it. I still can remember that day! It was a rainy day...and the city was grey and cold (for others) I was immediately drawn to it!!! I was sitting in a fast- food bar and waiting for my plescavita (some kind of food) and the woman who was preparing it was so friendly. She was using the last ketchup bottle and you know how it makes funny sounds when there is very little left inside of it and one tries to squeeze it out :) We were laughing....even though we didn't knew each other. Ah.... I can't say when that was... I might have been either in the 7th or 10th grade...when I first went to Sibiu.
Piata Mare


le water thingy

 In the picture above you can see how Piata Mare, looks today. The first time I saw it...it was all ruins and with holes. people were digging for some stuff....old Archeological stuff... and there was mud everywhere. Remember...it was raining!! so it should have been even worse. But not for me....I was so happy and the only thing I was thinking about, was how beautiful this place was...and that I didn't wanna leave it! I made a promise that I will return as often as I could. And I did! and still do =))

le tunnel


 This is the place where most of my dreams came true! The place where I saw HIM for the first time, where I met Liv Kristine ...and where last summer (2011) I saw my dear Tarja live for the first time :) Here I met some very nice people, who become my friends. Sibiu si like a wonderland, where everything is possible!!!!
old building





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 This...Hermannstad...one day I will marry you!!! =))) That much ...I love you!

My next stop will be here:

Wishing....
You wonder what that is?....I was amazed that I didn't knew about it...even though It wasn't my first time in Sbiu.....another thing I love about this city...I always discover something new about it....like this :)
...tower!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Secret Garden

Today I fell in love with a Korean Drama called Secret Garden.
This day started really good...but then stuff happened...and I went home sick from all of it....fighting with tears...
I didn't knew what to do...I continued to work on an old painting...but then I stopped. I went over to my Parents room and turned on the Tv ( I know...that sad and pathetic)
That was the best thing I did today!
While I was switching from one channel to the other I stopped when I saw some weird looking people (by that I mean, Asians, no offense ... I don't call them weird in a bad way, just that they look all the same, and yet so different -> cool thing!) and to my mind came one person: Ada! She loves these kind of dramas and I decided to watch it... and guess what.... now I am a fan?? :)))
It fits....it won my heart with that beautiful song: That Man
I feel like that man...


One man loves you
That man loves you wholeheartedly
he follows you around like a shadow everyday
That man is laughing and crying

Just how much…how much more do I have to gaze at you alone
This love that came like the wind
This beggar-like love
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer…a little more
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back
I who love you am next to you now
That man is crying.

That man is timid
So he learned how to laugh
That man has many stories that he can’t even tell his best friend
So his heart is full of tears
That’s why, That man
You, he loved you
Because you are just same as him
Yet another fool, yet another fool
Can’t you hug me before you go?
I want to receive love, baby
Everyday in my heart,
Just in my heart,
I shout and
That man is next to her even today.

Do you know That man is me?
You’re not pretending that you don’t know, right?
You really don’t know cause you’re a fool.

Just how much… how much more do I have to gaze at you alone
This love that’s like a fool
This beggar-like love
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer…a little more…
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back
I who love you is next to you now
That man is crying.

I couldn't resist it!!! Every sentence...all! They speak from my heart! How could I not love it?
And of course...there is magic in this drama...so adorable...I can't wait for tomorrow to see it again!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Der falsche Weg zum Gluck/wrong path to Happiness....

here is the rest of the story, you saw on my deviant profile :)


         Fest entschlossen, versteckte er den Brief samt dem Gedicht unter einem Wasserkrug und verschwand. Das machte er nun jedes mal, wenn ihn Franz darum bat. Das Mädchen antwortete ihm immer. In einem der Briefe stellte sie sich vor und bat ihn, er solle sich auch vorstellen und vielleicht könnten sie sich irgendwann treffen. Ihr Name war Johanna. Franz wollte ihr aber seine Identität nicht preisgeben, vom Treffen war da  auch keine Rede.
          Es war schon Sommer und Julian kannte zwar ihren Namen ,wusste aber nicht wie sie aussah. Er erfuhr, dass sie von ihrer strengen Großmutter nur im Haus gehalten wurde und nur manchmal auch Raus durfte. Julians Neugier stieg von Tag zu Tag. Er musste sie sehen. An einem kühlen Sommermorgen machte er sich wieder auf den Weg, um den Postboten zu spielen. Warum war es so kühl? Es war doch Sommer. Und da! Da war wieder dieser Wind, der auch im Winter hier gewesen ist. Er war nur etwas milder. Als er den Brief unter den Wasserkrug legen wollte, sah er, dass der Wassekrug gar nicht da war. Nicht schon wieder. Dieser Wind machte ihn verrückt. Aus irgend einem Grund verunsicherte es ihn. Als er sich umdrehte, stand Johanna vor ihm. Es musste Johanna sein, denn sie war genau so, wie sie ihm Franz beschrieb. Sie starrte auf den Brief in seiner Hand und dann schaute sie ihm tief in die Augen. Gott! Ein Engel? Ja! Sie war bestimmt einer. Er wusste nicht, was er machen oder sagen sollte. Als sie den Brief aus seiner Hand nehmen wollte, erschrack er. Er wäre fast umgefallen. Lächelnd nahm sie ihn aus seiner Hand und wollte wissen, ob er der misteriöse Dichter sei. Er sagte ihr, er sei nur der Postbote. Und wie er das sagte! Er stotterte wie nie. Johanna schlug ihm vor, sie bis an den Fluss und zurück zu begleiten. So geschah es nun jedesmal und die beiden wurden gute Freunde. Er erfuhr zum Beispiel, dass sie nur die Briefe des misteriösen Dichters liebte nicht auch ihn. Julian beschloss, Franz nichts von seiner Freundschaft zu Johanna zu sagen. Warum auch? Johanna laß ihm alle Gedichte und Briefe vor. Fast jeden Tag besuchte er sie und sie verbrachten so ihre Zeit.
           Einmal da packte Franz Julian am Arm und sagte, “Ich habe mich diesmal selbst übertroffen, sie wird mein Gedicht lieben!“. Eine Neugier überkam Julian. Er musste wissen, warum das Gedicht so besonders war. Er beschloss ihn Johanna nicht zu geben. In derselben Nacht, als er ihn von Franz empfing, ging er aufs Dach und öffnete ihn. Er war wundervoll, er hatte sich wircklich selbst übertroffen und was am schrecklichsten war, Franz unterzeichnete ihn. Nein! Er konnte Johanna nicht verlieren. Obwohl er wusste, dass sie nur ihn liebte, wusste er auchn dass das weibliche Herz schwach ist und Franz nicht wiederstehen würde. Er öffnete das Fenster und wollte ihn in Stücke reisßen und wegwerfen, doch da war wieder dieser Wind. Während ihn der Wind mit seinen kühlen Armen umarmte, kam ihm eine Idee. Er nahm ein Papier und schrieb das Gedicht ab und unterzeichnete mit seinem Namen. Doch wie konnte er Franz so was antun? Ihn als seinen eigenen ausgeben. Was solls. Es ist schon getan. Aber die Schrift, sie war nicht dieselbe wie auf den anderen Briefen und Gedichte. Was nun ? Ja! Er schrieb auf einen Zettel : Liebe Johana, du wunderst dich sicher, weshalb die Schriften sich nicht ähneln. Du musst wissen, dass ich die bisherigen Gedichte mit der linken Hand geschrieben habe, um meine Identität zu schützen, und diesen, in dem ich mich nun endlich offenbare, habe ich mit der rechten Hand geschrieben, ich habe nun keinen Grund mehr, mich vor dir zu verstecken. Wir treffen uns morgen um Mitternacht und ich werde dich aus deinen vier Wänden befreien, in denen dich deine Großmutter gewissermaßen festhält. Ich liebe dich. Dein Julian.

I will post the end in a couple of day or so :)
Have a nice day,
Ani

Sunday, November 13, 2011

New Hope!

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The moment I saw this rose this summer I fell in love with it!
Now when I was looking through my folder with pictures I saw it and...it gave me hope....
There is something about this rose...so sweet and pink...just like a newborn baby!


While I was thinking what to write next ...my play list started playing a song....Don't close your Heart by H.I.M.


"I know how it feels to be on your own
In this cruel world where hearts are bound to turn to stone
Where you are alone
And tired of breathing
It's all going wrong
And you just can't stand the pain any more
You're too numb to believe in
In anything"
Life is hard...but that is what makes it real! Only when something drains every inch of our strength, love hope...our everything ....then we know...now that is worth fighting for! This week I will be brave! I will confess everything! I will...I will fight!
Happy hunting ;)

Le Ani

yummy
It's funny how I see my name on lots of things, such as this ice cream box :D
I love my name, and always will!
Usually I see my name on cars (here  the number of a car consists of the short form of the city  -> for Timisoara it's TM, then there are a couple of numbers and that is followed by 3 letters)
Then again my name is on every birthday cake :) In Romania when we celebrate a birthday we usually say : La multi ani! Which means to lots of years. Ani is the plural form for an which means year hehe....

Hope you have a nice Sunday afternoon !

Ani ;)



Wednesday, November 9, 2011

We are the same!

le Itsy
Today I realized that we are so much like everything around us! No matter how much we brag about being super mega etc something...as humans....we are part of nature. We keep making us believe that we are more than that....but maybe...that's what we are...and we have to accept that there is no way we can be without Nature. Funny is..she can be without us =))
And here they are! Animals, which we consider inferior to us ....they learn our ways...and who knows maybe they will actually save this world...when all we do is destroying it....

Here you can see my cat, Itsy =)) the door-opening-cat :D
Keep an eye on your pets...watch them evolve...the same way we used to ;)

Sunday, November 6, 2011

November...

... you remain!
My POWER
My PLEASURE
My PAIN

Someone once said, be careful what you wish for....you might get it!
Who would have thought that light can turn into something bad too?!
I was aware..that once I will step out of the shadows I will see things, that I might not want to..or might not like. It's been hard, and it's getting harder. One has to fight for a glimpse of light....light that will show you everything. and by everything I mean EVERYTHING! Good and bad, beautiful and ugly! Every aspect of you..your life...And yet, I lounge for this light :)

I hope I can take it! It's time to put some order in my life. To focus on what is important. To heal...
The battle with ourselves dresses you with a robe covered in scars. They have to heal...while you are continuing to fight.

I was going over some songs in my head for this month....at the beginning of October I thought of The Sacrament by H.I.M. But then....I wasn't sure it was the right one. Last night I had a little obsession with Kiss from a Rose by Seal. (Which explains the first words of today's post)

But while I was writing this....it simply came to me! And yet it was unclear...I had the refrain form one song and the name from another..... =) The refrain was from Dance of Faith and the rest from Chasing the Dragon.
Both songs are by Epica.

And I think I might have a solution! This month is about healing. It's a sacred and very dear month to me :)
So...November will have 2 songs with one title!
Chase the Dragon in your Dance of Faith!
My boat for this Month