Last night...I had a very strange dream...
I was with some friends, (the only one I can remember was Tzuki) We were going over a plan we had to get somewhere. It was a sunny and very warm day. While checking the roads we had to go, I remembered a forest we had to go through in order to get to a certain castle. We got on our bikes and we went for it. There was a park we went through, near the river Bega. The people who were standing there were annoyed by us, because of our bikes...but we didn't care! There was enough place for everyone. After that we were heading out through a field...followed by a bridge. Instead of going over the bridge, we decided we rather jump jump from stone to stone through the river. It was very sunny. The water had a golden color. Tzuki was right behind me. We had one more jump and we were on the other side of the river. We had to throw our bikes away. That's when I saw the white dress I was in. Tzuki helped me jump....now we were standing on the top of a roof. Down at the end there was a guy (I had the strong feeling he was a policeman or something) As I was climbing down the roof I told him (because he asked) where we were heading. I told him about the forest..and about the black Wolf. He decided to join us.
As we were going towards the forest through the city, the sun was setting. I told him that I had tried many times before to go to that place, but never succeeded because of the wolves. ( I can remember that forest from other dreams, and the fact that I was scared of the wolves, who were always there, most of the time white or gray ones, I don't remember ever facing the black one) He then told me that he knows them, that when he was young, he was put in a box and they all jumped (wolves) and started biting the box so they could catch him. But he survived. I was shocked and scared at the same time for him so I tried to grab his arm trying to show some sympathy, but he wouldn't let me. We came closer to the forest...I could see it's green gates! I was scared..what i they came again? I grabbed his arm, telling him I was scared. Tzuki went in front of us, I wanted to warn her, because it wasn't safe , but I couldn't see her anymore for once we stepped into the forest it was dark. He took me on his back and on we went. My heart was beating so fast...they could be everywhere... I had a feeling that we were heading the wrong way. A man walked by us and asked if we wanted them tamed. The guy said no, it's okay, she's with me. I was confused...tamed? and then I realized as I saw the little wooden houses, that we were in the place where the wolves lived. I screamed NO! Not here. He said: But didn't you wanna see the wolves? I said: No! I wanted to go to the castle! He: but it's too late now...he knows. And then I saw a shadow moving fast towards us. It was him, the black wolf. The guy and me on his back were going back...but he came closer and closer trying to bite me. We made it to a place where there was a little light....but the wolf kept jumping trying to get me....the guy's phone rang ( the song I heard then was the one from box in Elfenlied, after I woke up I checked my phone because that's my ringtone but no one called) He said that he had to take this call and that he would be right back. He hang me over a door and bounded the wolf with something, and the end of that was in my hand. The Wolf kept on jumping...once I let my feet down and he almost bit me. I couldn't stand it any longer...I was weak ...and the wolfs was still here...so I gave in...I let myself down. He came right at me but I grabbed his head and started talking to him, telling him my goal and petting him. He became still and looked at me...he played with my hand..then he sat down at my feet. I was amazed and relieved at the same time. I started telling him about my heartache...it was like he understood. I remember seeing a piece of paper on which there were some words I can't quite remember...something like: we see we have we want ...in order to ...something.
I am really happy about this dream, I don't know why, but I think that now when I will dream about that forest, I won't be afraid anymore, since I made peace with that something in me that kept me outside :)
PS: The black dog from the pictures, is the dog of some family friends :) There are only a few people who can play with him...since he is very..moody let's say :))
